I was thinking back about the first time that I landed in US. That has to be the scariest day in my life, hands down. That day I felt most lonely and vulnerable in my life. I decided to do my masters in US and after everything was done, including flight tickets, I was scared. I was going to a foreign country, to a foreign city where I knew not even a single soul. I was leaving everyone I loved back in India. I remember the day I was supposed to fly.
My potential roomie asked me to meet her at the airport. She was a proper psycho, a detailed post on her later on. Everyone had come to the airport, my parents, my aunts, uncles and my cousins. I felt so miserable that day. I regretted the decision to go to US. I kept blaming myself for making this horrible decision. How could I leave all these people who loved and cared for me so much?! How was I going to manage all alone in some foreign country? Probably I made a wrong decision and I kept repenting as I entered the secured area, leaving behind all those who mattered for me.
My roomie, once we entered the airport started acting weird. She did not wait for me at any counter. She just kept rushing as if she doesn’t care if I go with her. I was kind of surprised at her behavior since she was the one who asked me to join her in the flight. I wanted a companion since I was flying all alone for the first time in my life. Once I was at the gate, I called my mom. My mom was in tears. She said my uncle overheard what this roomie’s mom was telling others. My mom said “she is going to leave you behind. Don’t trust her. Take care of yourselves.” Everyone was scared that I had to manage everything alone. All these days they somehow convinced themselves that I had a roomie who was flying with me.
After boarding the flight, I realized that she had even gotten her seat number changed. She did not even sit next to me in the flight. Fine. I can manage on my own. Once I was at the LA airport, I had no idea where to go. I walked outside and saw people waiting to receive others. OOPS! I turn behind and see the board “once you exit, you cannot enter”. I requested an officer and told him that I had another flight to board. He was sweet and led me to the right door. I really thought I would never reach my university. Somehow I made it to the gate. While at the gate, I met some guys who were also going to my university.
One of them – S, was very sweet and helped me a lot. Once we were on the plane, we chatted and I found out that the ISA were coming to pick him up. I was ready to go with them, since I did not trust this girl even a bit. She would leave me whenever she felt like. When we landed, this girl came straight to me and wanted me to go with her. A senior had come to pick her. I reluctantly went with her, as I had no other choice. I had put my belief in this girl and had no idea she will turn into a double-headed snake like this. This was my biggest mistake. I put my faith in the wrong person, right from the beginning.
After reaching senior’s house, I got to know that she had planned to take in another girl as her roomie. She wanted to kick me out. Lot of things happened and eventually, the three of us ended up becoming roomies. I roped in couple of my other friends too and we took an apt. Fast forward few months, this girl was kicked out of our house by my other roomies. She was simply horrible. Not even a single person could tolerate her. So finally, this roomie with whom she was supposed to live with ended up becoming my roomie. And we lived happily for 2 years as roomies.
These incidents did open my eyes. Until these incidents happened, I used to look at the world with rose-tinted glasses. I thought everyone in this world was good. I never knew there were people who would not think twice before backstabbing you or cheating you. Now I have transformed from a timid girl to a brave girl. Brave girl who can face anyone in this world. I would joke saying that I can stay alone on a marooned island and survive. I can do something on my own in this world. I am not scared of flying alone to any place in this world, I think. I still cry a lot, but I have the courage to face the world.